I have always been curious about how other people see me. I would always find myself wondering whether their perspective of who I am resonates with my own perspective of myself. Although I am a firm believer that one knows one’s self better than anyone else, there has always been a part of me that wants to know how people view me.
Because of that, I decided to ask the friends I still get to communicate with during the pandemic about how they view me, and compare it with the way I view myself. I gave them some series of questions and asked them to answer it as truthfully as possible.
Before we dive deeper on who I am based on some of my friends’ eyes, I would like to tell you first who I am in my own eyes.
Me in my own eyes
I view myself as the embodiment of the stereotypes wrapped around my zodiac sign, Gemini. Although I no longer believe in zodiac signs because I feel like by believing in them I am caging myself in a box that stops me from improving myself, whenever I read about my zodiac sign, I still feel like I am the one being described.
The way Geminis are described as beings with two personalities resonates with me. I am always either passive or aggressive; mature or immature; confident or shy. I tend to contradict myself a lot which I think makes it hard for the people who I am close with to actually feel close with me.
Although that is the case, I am very adaptive in a way that I can easily blend in to different people. I think the main reason why I can easily go to different friend groups whenever my junior high school friends and I used to fight is my adaptability.
If there is one thing I think I taught people, it is the value of thinking deeper than necessary. I am someone full of thoughts. Believe it or not, I consider elaborating ideas as a real hobby. Even though I am usually seen as this shallow thinker, I believe my thoughts hold depth.
One thing I think I should change about myself is my impulsiveness that shows whenever I am angry or annoyed at someone, most especially my friends. When I am angry or annoyed, I fail to control my emotions. I tend to to say and do things I do not actually mean.
When it comes to the thing I should not change about myself, I believe it is my will to dream big. The thing is, even now, I am like a child when it comes to dreaming. When I was child, I used to want to be an astronaut. This is hilarious but instead of the moon, I want to go to the sun. I want to create this amazing device that will allow me to step on that burning ball of energy.
Although my dream have changed, it is still something that most people would find as impossible to achieve. Despite that, I will not stop making my dream as my goal in life.
Me in my friends’ eyes
I realized that my first impressions about you were all true when we got close, but at the same time, I discovered that you were more than those things, and more than the ray of sunshine most people see you to be.Vhianca Arisha
When some of my friends got to know me, they saw me in a different light. Most of their first impressions of me were true, but they realized that I am not all that. Underneath the shy, childish, immature, bitchy and rude girl is someone whose heart is soft and whose soul is brave.
One of them stated that I am someone who is really open to everyone and I believe that is something I learned from my mom since she taught me the value of being an open book. According to one of them, I am someone who is really opinionated and observant. I also tend to be vain in nature despite being insecure.
Aside from that, I also learned that one of my friends see me as someone who is consistent when it comes to the things she like. According to her, once I want something, I will try my best to get it as much as possible.
The lessons my friends consider as things I taught them are the following:
- See the good in yourself more often.
- You can change for the right people or because of the right people.
- Mistakes may happen, but at least you are surrounded with people who will always support you.
- In a world full of bad people, there are a few good people worth holding onto.
- Sometimes it is okay to stick with your gut feeling.
- Happiness is a choice we make.
- The world does not revolve around me.
- Keep doing what you are doing until your feelings for a specific person will go away or fade.
Why, hello there!
Thank you for reading! I appreciate it a lot.
In case you are wondering how I managed to ask them about myself, I made use of a Google form. If I were you, I would try this out since it is really fun to read the answers. It is like seeing yourself in other people’s eyes.
By the way, I would appreciate it a lot if you follow my mom’s Instagram account :”)
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