To the girl who loves having her picture taken,
I am sorry I need to break this to you.
I do not know where you are right now or what you are doing; I do not know if you are reading this before your 7th birthday or after your 13th birthday; I also do not know if it is the proper time to tell you this. All I know is the fact that what I am about to tell you holds importance.
Maybe the people around you will think otherwise once they read this letter, but I know you. I know how much this is going to affect you. I also know how much this is going to shock you.
The thing is, one day, you will find yourself avoiding the idea of having yourself photographed.
It is hard to believe knowing how much you love having your photographs taken, but trust me on this one. It is something you will never see coming and it will fill your mind with questions.
“What happened to my love of seeing photographs of me?”
“Why did my love for it suddenly vanish?”
“Was it because of the judgmental stares I always think other people give me? Was it because of how much I criticize myself based on other people’s subjective beauty standards? Or was it because of the way I tend to always compare myself to others?”
These are just some of the questions you will ask yourself.
I seldom wish for something, but, right now, I am wishing that before you find yourself hating the idea of being photographed, you remember the way your eyes gleam whenever you notice the lens of the camera focused on you; the way your lips curves up and part to reveal your teeth; and the way your body manages to do different poses before every click of the shutter button.
I am wishing for you to remember the way you do not bother thinking about how you would look; the way you do not seem to care about your angles; and the way you do not see every one of your photographs as something that can fall into two adjectives: beautiful or ugly.
I am wishing for you to remember and to never forget these things.
Those two adjectives cannot and will never encompass the moment captured in the photograph. Whenever you stare at your pictures, I hope you see a glimpse of the moment and not your physical attributes that you think needs changing.
I hope you see yourself, and not your appearance.
the girl who used to love having her picture taken
Why, hello there!
Thank you for reading! I appreciate it a lot!
My inspiration for this is the popular blog format “a letter to my past self”. As you can see, this is my letter to my past self: the girl who loves having her picture taken. I hope I successfully presented it that way.
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